I Confess, I am Weak

Why do I have to tell someone about my weakness when they don't know about it? Why do I have to humiliate myself in front of everyone while they think that I am all perfect and am a good girl? Sure, I have a bunch of skeleton in my closet and I would die if someone finds out about them because I am not proud pf them. So, why should I blow the trumpet?

There is something that I am doing and I know that is wrong, I don't want to let anyone know about it and I would honestly die if people found out. It makes me unhappy, I want to quit but, who cares because no body knows? Obviously no one! (as if I knew)

This is how I used to be. I had issues but did not want to confess them and I would say that  what's the point for me to confess because no one knows that I am this bad person in the planet? I did not see the point! In the process, that shameful thing I was doing became a habit because it was comfortable and I did not show that I want to get rid of it. The stronger it stuck to me, the angrier and defencive I would be with it. And I tell you, it killed me. Big time!!

As it was comfortable, it started giving me reasons to be well with keeping it. I was falling but I was too proud to admit it ( Oh! My God, I can't believe how foolish I was). There was a voice at the back of my head that was telling me that I was falling but my silence was more dominant over the positive voice. In the sight of people I was that good girl whom everyone wished their daughters, sisters, friends, colleagues and girlfriends were like me. And all that was a lie! It was not me!

I came to realise that I don't have to speak to man (as in flesh) but there is Someone who will never comment back, judge or humiliate me, as those were things I was afraid of, but He will listen to me, comfort me and restore me again. Isn't it awesome? I decided to open my mouth and let Him know my situation. Oh! I cried and I became very ugly. Guess what? He did not say a thing to discourage me but He did the exact three things above. How relieved I was!!!

If you feel that your skeleton is not so pleasing, don't talk to man, he might comment and break you, judge you and destroy you. Go to God as I did, He does not act like man and He does not think like man....He is God.

Do it, you won't be sorry! That's the sweetest relief you can ever find.

Stay Blessed